I was impressed to see that the way the Silverlight design was created, it showed some characteristics of an iPhone.  Imagine moving around on your computer screen like an iPhone.  The Rolling Stones Magazine web site had those features.  Moving from one page to the next.  They demonstrated this on an HP computer that had the touch screen options.  With Silverlight, it really amazed me.

My photography web site is created with flash.  If there was an application where I can upload photos to a Silverlight, I wouldnt mind at all.  It’s very beautiful.

The downfall to Silverlight would be to wait for others to get on board to use it.  I think its a matter of time till others will show enthusiasm for it too.  Im curious to see what Adobe Flash will come up with to be a part of the competition.  It will be AMAZING!

Did you know that there is a group of people on this earth that literally lives up to a 120 years old at the most?  Yes its true.  They are located in the mountains of Pakistan and they are called the country of HUNZA.  I did some research on them and its because they say its because they live on the mountains with an abundant supply clean air and oxygen.  No pollution and also their natural  drinking water PH is very high.  I have only recently been introduced to understand the basics about PH levels in water.  I have been researching the different kinds of water that we can all drink so we can bring our PH levels up in our bodies and live healthy.  Of course high in alkaline foods will automatically bring the acidity in our bodies down.  Here are a couple of web sites.  

http://www.alkavision.com/blog/

http://alkavision.com

I have also been using Vitalzym too.  Its actually a very good product.  I have been using it since the week before Thanksgiving 2008.  By December of 12th in just three weeks I have already felt the cleansing in my body.  Its really a great product if you are getting old.  Especially when our bodies no longer produces the same amount of enzymes like we use to.  Imagine a pint reduced to a tablespoon as you get older?  I have felt a lot of great results.  I feel like I am being cleansed every single day.  I am hoping this is temporary.  Decrease my dosage as my health gets better.  

I will need to take YOGA to naturally release the important chemicals to make my body back to balance.  

I am now also researching the best colon cleansing product.  I think Colonix would be the best.  I will probably try it in February.  Its very expensive.  I will need to save up before I can really do this.  But I am hoping that my body will benefit from the cleansing.  

You guy should look at videos about colon cleansing.  Its really disgusting.  Makes you want to stop drinking alcohol and anything bad for you.

Anyways….thats just a short overview of some of the things I have been researching.   I will be writing a private blog of a list of people I may I have issues with in my past or current.  Write a column of why I have an issue with that person and another column stating why I should forgive them and myself.  It will be therapeutic. 

As you can see, I am trying to heal myself on the inside out.  With the help of family and friends and also  in prayer and meditation, I think I can successfully do this.  Lets wait and see the results.

Im too busy anyway to go to fashion shows.  I wouldnt mind going to fashion shows outside of Sacramento. The only reason is because I think it would be best to bring something from outside to Sacramento.  I do like to promote Sacramento talent, but I really believe that in order to share Sacramento talent is to also expose them with other talents outside as well.  

Our last fashion show, Sacramento Fashion Week.  I wouldnt mind having Preston Doh with the Lucio Montana collection and Nancy Wong with her Pegasus Maiden Collection again.  I think their line up was very professional because they were strong pieces that told a story or a theme.  They planned it from head to toe. From the hairstyling to every shoe.  Thats how it should be. 

I don’t believe that I’m a bad person when it comes to making the decision to disassociate with certain individuals.  I disassociate because they bring negative energy.  

I know why I am surrounded by many people who believe in my projects.  I know why people come to me to be a part of my circle.  It’s not about power over others.  It’s not about trying to be the best and be above others.  It’s about helping others and showcasing who they are as individuals.  I am surrounded by people who are positive. I am surrounded by people who are just good honest people.  

Occassionally I get one of those DIVAS and POWER DRIVEN crazy people around me.  Honestly, I do not associate with those people too long.  

Talk smack about me – I will only try to send you the good light towards you.  I am hoping that your heart will be softened by the lovely energy of kindness and honesty.  I would rather have your negative energy deplete and replaced into what everyone wants.  What does everyone want?  Everyone wants PEACE.  

I don’t want to bash anyone and I certainly do not want to bad mouth particular names.  I do have a couple of things to write in GENERAL.

I think that a lot of things has just gotten way out of hand when it comes to who is who or even grabbing on to some type of recognition. Who is the new face in town and who is out? Who is black listed and who is not?

Bottom line is………….WHY DO PEOPLE CONTINUE TO BELIEVE WHAT THEY ARE TOLD AND NOT INVESTIGATE?  Why believe one story without confronting them yourself?  Look around you and see who looks legit and who doesn’t.  Who has more credentials and who doesn’t?  Who makes you uncomfortable and who doesn’t?

In the end, the truth will surface and then you will see their true colors.  Without confronting and without talking it out will only make you the LAST one to know.  Too bad — it’s a shame that you can actually lose friendships all because you believe only what you want to believe.

I am actually disappointed that these people do exist.  

I want to surround myself with professional people.  If you are no longer professional, what do you think I will do next?  Common sense.  We all have to face a time when you just have to make the most painful decisions and take a chance to the aftermath of the commitment of your choice.  MY CHOICES?  We just have to wait and let the TRUTH surface and hope that the people who turned their backs on you will come to light and realize that they hurried to the wrong conclusions. 

I AM SICK AND TIRED OF ALL THE RUMORS AND THE STUPID STORIES OUT THERE!   

How about try asking me why certain people no longer works with me?  ASK ME WHY! ASK ME WHY I DONT LIKE CERTAIN PEOPLE!  ASK ME WHY!  ASK YOURSELF – WHY? THERE IS ALWAYS A REASON.  I don’t wake up one day and stop associating with people. Do I look the type that would really stop talking to a person because of a minor reason? That is just hilarious!

Give me a call and I’ll take you out to lunch.  Lets talk and I’ll answer all your questions!

This week I have been meeting a lot of people to add to our media packages and also try to make appointments to potential sponsors. We need to make sure that we present it right with the right materials. I finally made my affirmation page.  Everything will fall in to place and we will move forward with flying colors.

Next thing you know it there was a shift in my dream where I was driving around the island and then saw celebrities waving at the side of the road as if they needed a ride to the oscars?  I said to the person who was with me in the car, I said – why are all these celebrities stranded at the side of the road?  I drove closer up the hill of this island and then the shift was where I stood looking towards the ocean and people were walking up the stairway and I remember the faces of these celebrities.  They were all excited to go into the theatre that was right behind me.  I greet each person and then again that same woman with the long swirly braid came to me and we did the air kiss on the cheek and hugs as if Ive known her for years.  

Sometimes my dreams are prophetic and they are said in a way where its probably not so much metaphors.  I really think that it might mean that I am suppose to meet a woman of some sort who will help me get to where I need to go.  We will be good friends and she will help me get to the next level.  Maybe?  Lets see what the outcome of this dream telling me.  Because I can honestly say that I had several dreams of myself at this location.  I am always here outside of the theatre.   

I guess I should talk about other things now.  I finally got to meet some designers who are prospects for my next project.  I like to tackle my projects with a purpose.  I like to tackle them as if it not only benefits me but for others.  I want to make a change as a whole.  I am not in it to make myself look good because I know that such a project like this cannot be done without the help of others.  My main goal is to improve the quality of the industry in Sacramento.  We need to start getting models paid, start getting bigger companies wanting to sell their products here, we need to introduce products to the community that nobody is aware of,  its all about moving the trend and starting it.  Quality is the key.  I am not into the college type style fashion shows.  If we have to begin showing it this way, then I will do it until we can move on to the next level.My intentions are good.  I am not controlling the industry but I would like to see some progress.   

I watched the whole thing and I thought it was interesting.  I can only say that it was not something new.  It seems as if I knew this was happening between people but was not able to speak about it in words.  Finally someone writes a book who is able to extend this visually and in perfect detail in book form.  Amazing!  I have experienced series of events since January 1 2008 this year.  I would probably try my best to write all of them just to document them in case I want to go back to it and read what I went through in a series of time.   

 Yesterday  spoke to a couple of people.  There was this one particular woman who right away drained my energy after speaking to her.  Talking about cosmetics and etc etc.  I guess she was shock at the fact of what I was talking about.  It is rather unconventional compared to what Sacramento is ready for.  We will see.  I am bold enough to take risks.  I dont mind really.  I think I am ready for change even though some people are not. 

 Its funny how I am now doing the things that I use to do years ago.  I was an activist seeking for change and always pushing for the right thing to do.  Except now I am in a different realm and a different group of people.  Social change and economic change.  It can be really time consuming but I long for the rewards of being able to make people realize that it wasnt all that bad when making this change.   

 I have a problem with the fashion industry in Sacramento.  For some strange reason, I think most of them think that I am rather harsh at the fact that I say that the models need to be good walkers.  YES of course great walkers are a must.  I think that is why I have made great emphasize that this is important.  Rather than seeing models looking terrified on the runway.  

Another one is that I have a problem with fashion shows that does not require a lot of detail planning.  Anyone can throw a fashion show.  You can put dresses on dogs and have a fashion show too.  The funds may be low for other productions but squeeze the budget so that you get what is more important.  Yes the fashion outfits are the most important.  But if the runway looks crappy – or if there is a POT HOLE in the ground……what’s the point in having a fashion show?  Isnt it important that we make sure the models are not in a safety hazard?  I wouldnt want to see models falling into a pot hole and seeing that they get up with a sprained ankle.  Also when the runway is shaking and the models are terrified that they might eventually fall.  

Then you got the whole diva thing about hair and make up.  Sure you can get that done.  By your relative? Your sister or your cousin?  You should have it done by a professional.  Sometimes people dont see the whole big picture?   You need to have that done by a true professional.  I find it amusing that other designer colleagues do not warn their other designer friends if their presentation needs improvement.  I guess its suppose to be a competition?  Is it?  Is it a competition? Being the person who is not a fashion designer, I am not so bias when looking at designers.  The only thing that is important to me is the QUALITY and VALUE of the design.  Holes in the pants, stray threads and etc etc.  I also dont like it when designers choose models who cant walk.  Just because his her face is pretty and they cant walk……its still not going to work.  Your audience will look at their walk more than the CLOTHES.  Isnt the point is looking at the outfit?Presentation – Presentation- That is what its all about. 

My fashion show production group has taken a new project.  We are converting into an Incorporated company.  I think Sacramento will be shocked at what we are forming.  Haha.  I think it will be funny to see the look on their faces when this is out in the open.  We have been collaborating with other productions and also with a lot of corporate sponsors.  We are so excited. Its just so great to finally meet people that you can rub elbows with.  Coming from college with a background in making a change has brought me back to where I am now today.  There are many things that needs improvement in this industry.  I hate it when photographers dont pay their models.  That is why in our next fashion show, we are planning to pay our models.  These fashion shows that have models do runway walks for free has just got to GO.   How can any fashion industry improve, if we continue this way. I have to admit, I have produced fashion shows that models do runway walks for free.  It is wrong and I think its a pity that models will do it just to get ahead.  I want models to feel valued.  Well we have learned our lesson, so we started off giving them COMPLIMENTARY GIFT BAGS.  These bags came with Jamba Juice Gift Certificates, Starbucks, Clothes, Bath and Body Works giveaways, Great America Tickets.  These were given in exchange.  

Well NOT ANYMORE – I want that we pay our models.  Im a photographer.  Yes I am!  I dont like it when models do things for free too.  It really hurts my industry.  Hurts the value of photography and also the value of fashion.  Watch the change…….I am all for it.  I want to see models get paid, photography be valued almost equal to San Francisco and also luxury companies question the VALUE of promoting their products in Sacramento. Yes thats right.  I would like to see luxury companies think of sacramento as a place to promote their luxury products.  We cant bring VOGUE to Sacramento until this has been changed and resolved.  It would be so ridicules if the industry doesnt change.   Vogue will not come to Sacramento, if we have the industry DEVALUED this way.  Free models?  Free Photography?  Free Free? Yes everyone wants free.  How can anything be of value if we dont improve?  I may sound like a sell out for saying this, but fashion models should look like fashion models. Not MAXIM style models in COUTURE.  Yes – go right ahead and vent back at me for saying what I just said.  Runway models are also runway models. Not Commercial models are runway models.  What has happened here?  Sure now days we have Plus size models on the runway for certain designers, but of the TRADITIONAL runway shows – Runway should be restricted to Runway models.  Gosh – what in the world?

Im so excited. We have a big production but its full potential is still growing. I can say we got a lot of in store and we wont let it all out all at once. A piece of it will be shown in FEB 2008. But there is more to it. We have a lot of long term goals that we need to accomplish. I can see it happening.

Im so so happy.

It’s a surprise. Look at us in the next 2 years, you will see a big difference. )

We have a great database of models of good walkers. I am so glad we are still doing this. I just need to focus. The time spent going from San Francisco and back to Sacramento is a lot of stress on me but its worth it. My newest photography work will be published soon, but I need to really concentrate on getting it done. The hard part about it is the art director in me is always concerned with details. I think a photographer that throws a model in front of the camera is not challenging to me. I think planning is challenging. I think making the effort to understand the product is more effective than to rely on others to tell you how to photograph it. Then you are just a photographer pushing a button.

Anyways my back hurts. I dont know what happened to me but, I was fine this morning. I took a shower. I moved around the house quickly with no problems. Then when it was time to leave the house, my back started going NUTS. That is so crazy. So now I rubbed ICY COLD cream on my back and a heating pad. Hopefully I heal quickly because walking around like an old woman is just an inconvenience.

I think sometimes blogs are an inconvenience too. Why would I jot down stuff where people will read my insecurities or likes or dislikes? It’s like feeding your enemies amunition back at yourself.

Im just going to write about positive things. Maybe a few stuff that bothers me. I can say one thing……..I really love my newest collection of photographs. I think I am reaching a newer level now. Im so excited! It will be released on the week of the fashion show.

The time has come. If they want to stick around, that is fine with me. If not, I am already pulling out resources to help me with this crazy project. It’s really a time consuming project. But it has been made and said….as long there are people who want to do this, I wouldnt mind it at all.

Well its time to get some new people and new ideas. Then lets move on to make this a bigger and better show.

I woke up the next morning and for about two hours being awake, my mother comes to me and says, “Your cousin just called and said that your Aunt’s instestinal fluid has now merged with her uterus area.”

My mouth dropped and my heart sunk at the same time. Then I remembered my dream. How can this happen to me? I am not going to say Im going insane. I am not going to say I am special either. I can only say that…..I am just OPEN to this kind of stuff. Im just aware and open.

You can say Im crazy or tell me that it was just a coincidence. I dont care. I do believe earlier that day before sleeping with that dream, I was hurting so bad inside. I asked God to help me to be strong and also to shine his light into my Aunt’s womb to ease her suffering. I asked God to show me a sign that he is still near. Even though I am well aware in my heart that God is everywhere always, it doesnt hurt to ask God for some kind of sign. I do believe God was showing me one his ways that he is near. I dont think it means anything specificially. It might mean something or it might not. Doesnt matter. God will let me know what I need to know. But that dream only showed me that God is very near.